A reason... to live or to die.
What it is
The thing is, we forget what suicide really is. It's not an end to itself. It doesn't really
relieve us of the pain we're so desperate to get rid of. Instead it just transfers the pain
to all of your friends and family. But that's not the real issue with suicide.
Suicide is a symptom. It's not a disorder like depression or anxiety. It's a symptom of a
disorder, however, most often depression. And it strikes when we're least capable of
dealing of fighting back. When the pain is too overwhelming to our coping ability,
suicide becomes a reasonable option. And when I say "reasonable", I mean it seems
like a decision that will really help us in the long run. It'll finally put an end to all
Suicide is right now, for you, just a thought. You haven't acted on it to any degree that
you are absolutely lost yet. Just because you're thinking this thought doesn't mean you're
a bad person or that all hope is lost. Remember, all people have thought about suicide
at one point or another in their lives. Thinking about something and then acting on it
are two different things. Just because you feel the way that you do at this moment doesn't
make it inevitable that you have to act on it. We live much of our lives not acting
immediately or haphazardly upon our feelings. We take time to think about what those
feelings mean, and whether it's in our best interests to act upon them. Even when
all that we're feeling is so much pain.
All the pain. How much pain are we talking about? For most people, we're not talking about
a lifetime of pain, even though it may feel like that right now.
No, we're usually talking about a specific event or a time that measures
in days or weeks. But not a lifetime. So let's be real and truthful here. You haven't been
hurting all of your life. If you think long and hard enough, you will recall a time when life
wasn't so hard, when it was actually pretty good. Yes, that wasn't yesterday. Maybe you can't
even remember a good time this past year.
But that's okay. I just wanted us to be clear about how much pain we're talking about here.
For most, it's not a lifetime. But it is intense. And it is real. And it's happening now.
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